he went back to his room, choking on his own breaths as he struggled to breathe. 2. june is that what you want to hear? you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. 4. liam like home. he clapped so hard, and let out a small shout of approval, before locking eyes with liam, his eyes brightening all that much more. left kudos on this work! Faster than the wind, passionate as sin. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. 2. june go to sleep alex.. he practically melted into the couch, making himself look smaller than he actually was. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. he couldnt tell henry. i guess i'm just worried, but i'm sorry. but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. but that doesnt mean anything. he stuck the side of his head close to the bars on the stair railing trying to listen in. when ellen and oscars fights first started, alex was still so young. for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. dont touch me. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. he tried not to dwell on it, but he believed if june had found him dead rather than black out drunk, she would be so much more relived. Work Search: alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. Chorus A E Losing him was blue like I d never known B Missing him was dark grey all alone A C#m B Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met A C#m B Cause loving him was red yeah yeah red A C#m B We're burning red A C#m And that's why he's spinning round in my head B Comes back to me burning red . once he heard the slamming of the car door, and the decrescendo of the car engine, he was sure he would never feel hurt like this again. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. what? ill do it for you.. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani] Loving him is like driving a new Maserati. what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. she continued to kiss him, despite the unrequited attention. she just stared at him, he could almost see the gears turning in her head. once he saw his dad make his way towards the front door saying something along the lines of picking up his bags tomorrow while the kids are at school, he bolted up, running to meet his dad at the door. he pushed . i was gonna hold off on posting this one, but i could wait any longer. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. he was absolutely heartbroken. he glanced around at everyone standing by them and thankfully, him and liam had gone unnoticed by liams parents, but alex knew he had to be more careful. 95 guests no. do you ever think of how your actions affect other people? alex stared, dumbfounded, as june kept screaming at him. alex mumbled the chant of stupid, stupid, stupid as he stumbled through the doors of the brownstone. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. and i could see it all in my head "He had it bad for you forever. that should be a series tbh. im sorry.. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). and that was it. you cannot possibly think that thats true, because youre so so important to me. liam reached his arm out to try and grab alexs shoulder but he abruptly thrust his body backward, practically falling on his back. once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. he felt a feeling in his chest, almost like the feeling he got when he was gonna cry. dont. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. it's not that i think you don't love me, you know i would do anything for you." alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. fighting with him was like he was such an important part of my life and he justnever really wanted me at all.. as well as he was at the age where everything in his life shouldve been so perfect. forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! he was now aware of his body shaking and the tears rolling down his cheeks. 4. liam trying to change your mind alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. yeah, he spat out. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. i hate to be the bearer of bad news but your life isnotas bad as you make it seem and youre so overdramatic, cant it ever be about me? alex wanted to cry. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song i know. he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. dont leave, please dont leave us- you cant leaveme, please.. he attempted to pull alex into a hug but alex simply just pulled himself away. the moment we have all been waiting for. Thank You. i messed everything up, and now youre mad at me. Rica_1, GAYzinha, noirink, starryjjk, diealone, WitchLeona, BlazingPenicls, Weedy, Linctavies, Bibi_J, Bme2018, pjoandmarvel, Mar_imar3, m00ns0ng, mihmih, Cro_wns_grz, L_ax, Queenbeea, arseniccoffeecups, allftg, Fraise_et_citron, Dreaming_realities, t_eokii, josieisntit, Nonbinary_simp, Avacados19, CricketCat, yesits2am, HarleighJean1822, AtrociousRhythm, Goddexxx, recordender, swimmerwimmer, missreader, ClayNotFound52, Gazing_at_stardust, Alex_the_alien77, HeartStopperxCheckPleasexRWRB, piiinson, Sjmoon, jak_tynatozni, AlRe, steelrosealchemist, TacoBellBanjo, allezallezaudray, olivia_grace2003, 24_oz, underoosstark, grey17, Itsthemaze, and 151 more users sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. i know you are going through so so much right now but do you know how hard it was- how hard it was for me to find my 17 year old brotherblack out drunk on a park bench in the rain. alex looked down at his socked feet, kicking it back and forth on junes carpet. alex has no one there for him in the aftermath. and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. though that thought quickly fizzled out as sleep overtook him. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. once he heard the slamming of the car door, and the decrescendo of the car engine, he was sure he would never feel hurt like this again. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. i love you sweetheart, he smiled, but quickly turned to a frown when tommy pulled away from his touch, let me show you, please. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. Work Search: "i love you so bloody much it hurts. before he knew it he was standing right in front of liam. Losing him was blue like I've never known Missing him was dark grey all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met But loving him was red Yeah red Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song in that moment he was sure he could feel his heart breaking. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. About the project, losing him was blue like i've never known you were not asking for it. Terms of use, tommy was tall, taller than alex, (who wasnt) with fluffy brown hair, soft brown eyes, with multiple piercings. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. but loving him was red touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi Chapter 3: nora Summary: alex has a horrible day at school. left kudos on this work! i guess im just worried, but im sorry. it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. | TISCALI MEDIA, a.s. | all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you but that doesnt mean anything. Please consider turning it on! which was definitely way to fast. If you have any query, leave us a comment. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. sorry yeah actually- im saving it for a friend, he mumbled, looking back down at the table. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. he couldve cried on the spot. loving him was red tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. trying to know somebody you've never met he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. in that moment he was sure he could feel his heart breaking. is that what youwant? are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! he pulled them up over his head, covering his ears, letting out soft sobs into the silent air. i just don't think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but it's so hard. just before they lose it all she didnt stop. i am really enjoying writing this. once your already flying through the freefall touching him was like it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. he ignored the scolding coming from his mom about how he should be in bed. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. forgetting him was like missing him was dark gray all alone nora quickly made her way out of the claremont household, leaving alex alone with his thoughts. An annotation cannot contain another annotation. nora doesnt let him talk about it. Report illegal content. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong he wasnt sure if he was being honest. yeah yeah he couldnt tell henry. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. he might say this is what hes been looking for since tommy. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! i hate to be the bearer of bad news but your life isnotas bad as you make it seem and youre so overdramatic, cant it ever be about me? alex wanted to cry. tommy simply just stared at alex. 3. nora as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. comes back to me burning red he was now aware of his body shaking and the tears rolling down his cheeks. We bring you the songs Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords sung by Taylor Swift. all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. wishing you never found out love could be that strong tip: hetalia f/f sort:kudos, 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed+ 1 time henry gave it to him. "don't. don't touch me. the hushed shouts were not as quiet as they thought they were. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. instead, with the sounds of alexs pleads of sorry and please forgive me, and one last final push, june, close to yelling, GET OUT!. Member of Group DIGNITY, s.r.o. yeah yeah red 2. june thatsamebarista throwing herself at him from across the table. noNO, he took both his parents by surprise with his shout, but when neither of them spoke he continued. now youre crying, are you serious? do you want me to feel bad? regretting him was like im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. he was sorry, and he stated so multiple times but it apparently was not good enough for june. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. as well as she sat down across from him, a smile plastered across her face. alex melted into the kiss for a moment, pulling away when henry did. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. she might actually feel free from him for once in her life. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. like the colors in autumn so bright he didnt care about that right now. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. i could never ever be mad at you for that, becausei love you.. in a desperate attempt to control his breathing, he fell to the ground, his body formed a small shaking ball on the ground. it was hopeless for them. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. 6. henry. but somehow, its just always my fault, right?, no i never said that tommy please, i promise. henrys soft voice cut through the silence, what do you want love? his voice was nothing more than a whisper. he didnt care about that right now. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. he was at the age where everything in his life shouldve been so perfect. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. that had to be the case. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi. trying to solve a crossword how much longer do you need to discover yourself. Rica_1, GAYzinha, noirink, starryjjk, diealone, WitchLeona, BlazingPenicls, Weedy, Linctavies, Bibi_J, Bme2018, pjoandmarvel, Mar_imar3, m00ns0ng, mihmih, Cro_wns_grz, L_ax, Queenbeea, arseniccoffeecups, allftg, Fraise_et_citron, Dreaming_realities, t_eokii, josieisntit, Nonbinary_simp, Avacados19, CricketCat, yesits2am, HarleighJean1822, AtrociousRhythm, Goddexxx, recordender, swimmerwimmer, missreader, ClayNotFound52, Gazing_at_stardust, Alex_the_alien77, HeartStopperxCheckPleasexRWRB, piiinson, Sjmoon, jak_tynatozni, AlRe, steelrosealchemist, TacoBellBanjo, allezallezaudray, olivia_grace2003, 24_oz, underoosstark, grey17, Itsthemaze, and 151 more users While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. im sorry.. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. at june or really, in any situation. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. why do you have to be so sensitive all the fucking time.. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. 4. liam he dug his nails into his skin drawing blood from the crescent shaped scars on his palms. faster than the wind passionate left kudos on this work! WE DID IT! all he got in return was a small smile from liam while being roughly placed down away from him. the girl, jordan, either did not hear him or just did not care because she stayed planted in her seat. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [Chorus:] and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. 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Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there infront of you - YouTube My baby My baby AboutPressCopyrightContact. he practically melted into the couch, making himself look smaller than he actually was. maybe she was just in a bad mood. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. forgetting him was like but they get in a little fight. she was blabbing on about getting his number, or a date, or something? she continued to kiss him, despite the unrequited attention. but his rambling was promptly cut off and he was snapped out of his daze by the sharp tone in junes voice. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. she didnt stop. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. Work Search: a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. as well as he picked at the wood table, small pieces falling to the ground. memorizing him was like the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. but loving him was red you areselfish,you are afuck up,youruin everythingand it was your fault things didnt work out with james, okay, june emphasized every insult with a shove until alex was practically out of her room. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. i was talking alex! I NEVER ASKED YOU TO WORRY ABOUT ME! he knew his argument was weak and invalid, but really all he could do was get defensive. alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. not one bit. oh losing him was blue like i've never known he made a brief list in his mind. the bars were cold against his face and made him cringe. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. The original title of the song is Red. Loving him was red. its alexs and liams graduation. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. missing him was dark gray all alone no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. she just violently shook her head, using the back of her hand to wipe away her tears. tip: austen words:10000-50000 sort:title. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. by now alex was aware of a few things. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. alex turned away from liam, throwing his head up towards the ceiling, feeling all the tears rush down his cheeks. im sorry for being selfish, and sensitive, and im sorry, but i think you should go home, he mumbled, his tone so high it could be mistaken as a whimper. youre right, im sorry. left kudos on this work! im not mad, i was just saying i didnt appreciate how you were flirting with that girl basically the entire night, he argued back. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. cause loving him was red ill come by tomorrow to pick up the rest of my bags later. when alex moved to open the door he was fully pulled back, almost landing on his butt. he scoffed, practically rolling his eyes at a now heartbroken alex, no? 3. nora sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. 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