Citizen TV | 27K views, 1.2K likes, 22 loves, 303 comments, 15 shares, Facebook Watch Videos from Citizen TV Kenya: Watch | #CitizenWeekend w/ Victoria. What's your Love and Life story? Let me be sweet to you and have fun with you. We both know that neither of us have had the best of luck in the way of "best" friendship.Both of us have gotten left behind, and so we both know how bad that feels. I will do all I can so I dont lose you. I would like to think that my happy ending would be stained for as long as they were in misery. If you would like to change your settings or withdraw consent at any time, the link to do so is in our privacy policy accessible from our home page.. I remember it. 1. It is okay. This post was published on the now-closed HuffPost Contributor platform. Your love is something that is sweet like a craving. It is a love that I was taught when I was a little girl. But I will be OK. My nature is to be fragile and wary, and the way things are going dont allow me to take a step back and lick my wounds. Am I ready to endure the doubts and anguish I had managed to set aside for a year? Does it matter at all that youve shattered someone? But I want you to want to do those things, while respecting me enough to know I can do them for myself. Founded in 2010, Thought Catalog is owned and operated by The Thought & Expression Company, Inc. For over a decade, we've been at the bleeding edge of media, pioneering an infrastructure for creatives to flourish both artistically and financially. He looked at you in a way that stirred a place inside your soul you hadn't known existed. Hating you felt good. I love you more and more with each and every passing second. (Before Children & Ex). Thank you for leaving. However, I do hope that youre forever faded into obscurity on the outskirts of my life, out of my vision and out of my mind. I was able to see that this really was the epic romance of my life because it was me who I had been waiting for all along. Bibliophile. You are my pillar when I feel weak and tired, ready to give up. Join & get 2 free reads. You were my home. And thats the case with your new activities, but am I ready to trade my joy of living for yours? 1. I believe you will be able to recognize when something is wrong, too. I've been through it (far too many times), and I know you have, too, but you don't have to worry. Thank you for showing me just how strong I am. You made a girl, who was told she could never dance again, dance. To produce them, I allow my fingers to move about in a rhythmic and rather therapeutic manner. It is because of this matter your health condition is worse now, I am not supposed to say this but for this reason, I will like to tell you that I am a good wife. We have the same heart, or rather what is left of it, and for that reason I hope this letter brings you some kind of complex sense of comfort. No one should have to feel like this. Before we go any further, there are a few things I need you to know about me. I have decided, instead of hating you for hurting me, to leave you with these last two words. You give me the best comfort. The visions you each have for your relationship do not align. Do you pray for them as vehemently as they pray for some otherworldly being to somehow take their pain away? I love listening to you talk about your day because it fascinates me.I love laying with you, simply listening to you breathe. Congratulations to all the writers! To the guy with nice perspectives but has lonely eyes, I fell for you. Your love is something I would love to experience in a lifetime You are different and I would not give you up for anything in this world Writing and research information professional. A book I aint scared to open or close. How I Married My High-School Ex (After 11 Years Of Me Wanting Him And Him Not WantingMe! I think it's time for me to start understanding that you are now just one of those people that is out of my reach. Hey, thanks so much for reading! You were there on my best days, too, standing beside me like the queen that you and I both know you are, and we always shine brightest together. The older I get the angrier I am. To the guy who laughs hard but always looks sad, its always been happier with you. Every time you read, share, comment or heart you help an article improve its Ratingwhich helps Readers see important issues & writers win $$$ from Elephant. I am yours all the time because your enemies have lost to you. Thank you for showing me all of the ways in which I was enmeshed in my own narcissistic tendencies and attachment wounds. I wouldnt have done so to you because there is no reason to do so. Please learn about it. You were there when I failed. When I say that you've left me alone, I mean that you have left me completely and utterly alone . Letters Lea An emotional letter to my my boyfriend, to tell you I'm afraid, to tell you I don't want to lose you. We and our partners use cookies to Store and/or access information on a device. Manage Settings Subject: An Open Letter To The One I Don't Want To Lose From: Me Date: 10 Sep 2016 Dear You, We both know that neither of us have had the best of luck in the way of "best" friendship.Both of us have gotten left behind, and so we both know how bad that feels. 2023 BuzzFeed, Inc. All rights reserved. Apart from remaining silent, watching you evolve and having this horrible feeling of letting you go. You made me feel beautiful. I loved you through changing circumstance and the rapid movement of time. I am worthy of my own unconditional love. You never fail to admire me even when Im doubting myself. Day by day, I felt like Im brand new because I am learning a lot from you. You dont understand my anger, and thats fine. Being mean is never OK, and I apologize in advance and will apologize again when it happens. Because I'm not the type to give up on people. All along. Read full bio, The Tibetan meaning of Eat my Tongue. {Dalai Lama}. Play on a publican's decoy. To view the purposes they believe they have legitimate interest for, or to object to this data processing use the vendor list link below. Even with this acquisition, dear love, I still love you. Let me cry freely and break down in your arms when I need to, trusting me enough to know that I am a bad-ass bitch and Ive got this. And when time has healed me, I hope it doesnt completely eradicate my memories of how I felt. I'll fight any battles you need me to, standing strong and loyal at your side. We were inseparable, you were my first love and the person I was the closest to. Unfortunately (or fortunately), I have not offended just one man. I love you: with every fiber of my being, with all the passion in my heart, and more than all the stars in the sky. Roopa Swaminathan. What would I ever do without you? My heart misses every other beat, my stomach tightens up, my brain switches to panic mode and my paranoia kicks in. Love is not something that you can take from me. If I told you that it is okay to be sad. Has this helped your ego? You might not have been my first love, but you were the love I loved. No matter what, always remember that I will always love you until the end of time. To the guy whos searching for answers, know that the answers are all you. This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator. Thank you for helping me to heal the little girl within who just wanted the love of her parents. Julie Rodriguez is an INFJ Leo in the throes of reinventing herself after a great loss. Please, dear, do not be shy to receive me, to err is human and to forgive is divine. Someone else's incapability to recognize your value does not decrease your worth. And when you gather us for a time with God, we need a safe place. He isn't the same man, but to him you cry the same words. Four years ago, I couldn't imagine ever meeting someone like you. I will be there when you least expected so that in return, I will not have to lose you anymore. Find us on Facebook, and Twitter. I will ensure I stay loyal to you for the rest of your life. Afraid of being the girl whos always on your back, saying you cant do what you love when what I desire the most is for you to be happy. My reaction can seem so childish and annoying. UVNAmerica asks Chance The Rapper to help distribute life-saving, ultraviolet light therapy device to HIV patients globally. She is passionate about sharing lessons learned from divorce to help others build more fulfilling lives grounded in strength and optimism. So I have forgiven every trespass and pardon all the pains I went through because it is a challenge and I have accepted it already. Eventually, you'll fall in love again and it'll be easier to forget all of the reasons you were hurting so badly before. Is it nice to know that no matter what you had chosen to do, you would end up coming out on top? I will forever remain grateful for the day you came into my life Contributors control their own work and posted freely to our site. I am your Natasha. I cannot formulate those emotions into words the same way I cannot describe the way it felt to have you rip that all to pieces. Elephant offers 2 articles/week for free. I hope I can learn to open up to you more, and let you know how I feel. Repeat. Name, You left with all emotions in my heart and stole my heart, leaving me empty. I could let you go easier and slam the door shut behind you as you left. An emotional letter to my my boyfriend, to tell you Im afraid, to tell you I dont want to lose you. We're community-driven. When I say that youve left me alone, I mean that you have left me completely and utterly alone in this. When I met you, you drove me crazy. May this sites daily new articles inspire & expand your mind& heart in the midst of this busy-busy world of ours. I hated you for not seeing what was standing right in front of you all this time. You have given me peace, love and hope Its giving yourself to the audience, and in a way putting your life out in the open. I know I shouldnt live in the past, you have told me time and again. Anger. Your affection is what gets me high I am happy loving you, I am lucky having you in my life. Mostly, thank you for making space in my life for the right man to come along. You said to keep me on surprising you because you believe in me and that I have talents and potentials or maybe more. Here we say what must be said, whether it is harsh, humorous, or even a teensy bit passive aggressive. On day one, you told me not to take constructive criticisms seriously and that we dont deserve anything less. You let me decide on my own. You're a bigger fool than me. My life is not easy and my situation gets complicated. Years have passed, you change, so do I, so does everybody. I love laying on your chest in my "home". There is only one simple concept, and that is that love is the most powerful entity in the world. God has given me a beautiful gift, and the gift is you. I could never do it. I realized that with you my heart may not be broken. I wish you could take back those words, and let's connect on a deeper level. I will never give up on you no matter how hard it gets I'm not leaving your side. "How could they do that to me?" //]]>. I hope that you havent tainted me and I dont come out on the other side of this as cruel and misgiving and hateful. Your email address will not be published. We're excited to hear from you! Learn how your comment data is processed. Jodee Prouse is a sister, wife, mom, friend, neighbor, and soon-to-be gramma. 'Cos the Art School was sad and. Not only does it feel more complicated to open your heart to someone new, it can feel equally as hard to be heard. Some of our partners may process your data as a part of their legitimate business interest without asking for consent. I hated that you showed me just how much I was disrespecting my boundaries, my energy, and my goddess-given divinity. I'm sorry, this may be a letter. No matter how hard your life gets I will always be here. Plus, you'll be compensated by HQ at $10/response for your first 10 articles. I am really sorry for the pain you might have passed through while I was mad at you. It is being able to see our own beauty and potential, even when others make those things feel non-existent. Now I can't imagine life without you. 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